Do you believe in fairytales?

I’ve never been good at holding onto anything beautiful, at keeping things or people close to me that are actually good for me and you, you are the best thing that’s ever happened to me. The very best and now I feel as though you are slipping through my finger tips because I can’t get my act together. I can’t hold on tight enough because my heart can’t handle how much love is inside of my body for you, it aches and it makes me feel so weak because I’ve never felt so much emotion towards another human being who returned the feelings. I can’t lose you, if I lose you then I lose me which is so dramatic but it’s the truth, I’m not sure my heart could take it again. All the voices are back and telling me things I don’t want to hear and I’m starting to give into them. I’ve always said ‘never lose yourself another person’ but I didn’t lose myself to you and I still haven’t, you are just the other half of my soul that I was missing. The piece I didn’t realize I needed. You’ve given me something no one else has ever given me and this is what terrifies me. I wish I could say these things to you without feeling like maybe you’d leave me after I said them or that you’d think I was insane or needy or clingy or annoying, it’s impossible. I have so many flaws and you are perfection. I still can’t and probably never will understand why you say you’re in love with me. I’m not good enough for you or anyone.